Will Fech -- Final Story
"Kinky, anonymous sex with old men is my thing"
I try to remember that the first thing Will told me was a lie -- something like, "My name is Josh and I am looking forward to meeting you."
The name ‘Josh’ and ‘Gent_Josh’ or ‘Josh_Gent’ were the handles Will created for himself online and in person when he first met men. He told me he created ‘Josh’ because he had some trouble with a past clients, which seems very likely. I found him in July of 2017, on Craigslist, where he posted a simple ad with the title "Anyone want a young man's massage?" It’s clear from his message to me after our session that he had been doing sex work since the year before, which is when he first arrived in Montreal.
No hustler has ever captured my attention as well as Will. He was the perfect gentleman with me while he courted my attention and the initial months with him were always a pleasure.
Will presented himself as a reserved, small-town boy in the big city, though I realize now rereading his initial email that he had been hustling for some time before I met him and was already experiencing problems. You can read his skill at writing in this note, "...everything else about me is true! Ha." We call this foreshadowing.
He maintained this wholesome persona with me until I found two profiles, a year after I first met him, that were completely incongruous with this image; his Rent.Men profile, which I found first, and his SilverDaddies profile. Finding this profile had a big effect - but I'm getting ahead of myself. Let's look at the image Will presents in public first.
A Very Public Secret Hustler
Theater/Music Group memberships
The Lyric Theatre
Will told me in the first month of his desire to be an singer/performer; he's always on stage with this group with whom he performs regularly under the direction of Bob Bachelor, the director of the company.
Will has been cast as a lead singer a variety of times and reviewers love him. His handsome face can often been seen in the ads and press copy for current shows, like the writeup by Kathryn Greenaway in The Montreal Gazette where he is bottom and cornered for the current Chrismas show.
He's upfront and central, looking at the Director, Bob Bachelor, in this years online ad for the next show, Candleight Christmas 2019.
Mr. Bachelor has featured Will often, and has used him many times singing to another man on stage, a kind of wink and nod to the gay audience this company enjoys, and certainly to the older men in the crowd who fancy being the center of attention from Will. He's even on their facebook page postings, in the same setting, again, with and older man as his center of attention;
More than just a chorus member
Will is a popular member of the chorus, clearly known to the President of the Lyric Theatre Singers, Louise Dorais where they are FB friends,
and in a variety of her postings and pictures:
posting pics 1 or posting pics 2
He has been used in many recruiting videos and pictures for the theatre, even while he was listing and working in massage on Rent.Men, Leolist, and Rentmasseur.
Will boasted to me many times that other members of the Lyric knew he did massage. We talked about this a lot, where I argued that calling his sex work by the name massage made people think he was like Richard Gere in American Gigilo, or some nice young man setting up a table and stroking your back, where in actuality, Will has little skill and nor formal training at massage. From his own descriptions to me and my experiences with him, I know his encounters are mostly about nudity, sex work, men touching him for money. He told me his couples massages always involved sex.
Specifically, the Lyric members Will told me knew about his sex work were Marie Alexiou (past member), Ian Burke (past member), Danielle Hoyt, Timothy Adams, Tarik Azgui, and Justin Muniz. Other members he hinted knew of his massage work were Katherine Fournier and Chris Barillaro, though I never quite knew what he meant when he would say they 'understood he did massage'.
As we all know, once information like this is discussed in a small group setting, it spreads, so I'm sure there are others who know now, and may even have known then, of Will's massage & sex work.
He's also the public face in minor companies, likeThe 7 Wonders Theatre Company where he is regularly featured and has done past shows that are featured on sites likeThe Montreal Theatre Hub. Will, or Bill Fech, is a known actor in Montreal.
Will had told me his true love is musical theatre, but he also tries to perform in serious companies, like The Snowglobe Theatre under the direction of Peter Giser where he most recently played minor roles in Hamlet
with some flare. He has been a selling face for the theatre, too -- helping to recruit more members and has been in mutiple online ads for workshops for the theatre, so the director clearly enjoys having him as one of the faces of the theatre. Many straight men are charmed by Will, and his sexual persona helps sell many things.
Unlike many other sex workers, Will is pursuing a PhD in Flim Studies -- a very uncommon pastime for men on Rent.Men or Rentmasseur. We discussed his program and his department from time to time, and I had asked him more than once if his advisor, H. Wasson, PhD knew he was a sex worker. He said 'he thought she knew he did massage' -- which is a lovely evasive and deceptive manner to answer the direct question. (See section on deception below). Since I've been on faculty at two major universities (and one minor one), I am quite familiar with academic life; I knew Will was not telling me all that had been discussed or occurred between him and his advisor.
His department shouldn't be surprised at Will's nakedness and sexual displays for money -- his first interview that I could find in the campus news specifically talks about doing nudity in public for many shows before he came to Concordia.
Since, recently, Concordia University has had a lot of press coverage about sexual policies and behavior recently, in national The CBC , regional The Star, and local outlets Montreal Gazette, it would be reasonable if Dr. Wasson informed the program director, Masha Salazkina department chair, Jean-Claude Bustros or even the new President of Concordia, Graham Carr. In my experience at Harvard, Wellesley, and Oakland University, departmental information lines flow upward very quickly, expecially about sexual matters. And Will performs with an affiliated music group, the Lyric Theatre Singers (see above), many times during the year, so he's visibile both in classrooms and on the main stages, which makes him all the more visible as a symbolic member of the Concoria community.
When Will first arrived at Concordia, he went by the name Bill Fech -- and he was already using his double entendre, sexually provactive style of writing (see close readings or deception) to accent his suitability to spend the night with older men of the cinema, including well know gay faculty members like Prof. Thomas Waugh, or filmmakers like Jon Jost.
writing as Bill Fech
Other Academic contacts
Will had once been approached for erotic massage (or more - it was unclear whether this client contact came from Rent.men or Rentmasseur) by the husband of a faculty member at Dawson College, where Will wanted to find employment after finishing his PhD. I had strongly encouraged him not to have sex with the husband of a man from whom he wanted a reference, work, or academic advancement. Much as with his theatre or chorus work Will often blurred the boundries of his paid, personal, and sexual intimacies, and that of his professional or academic life. I warned him that no one every really got a faculty job from sexual favors. I don't know if he ever went through with the Dawson college erotic massage, though I know that Will had regular clients with students from other colleges; he once told me that when he needed 'pocket money' he could just call an Arab student at McGill (one of a few, he mentioned) and the guy would pay for a session
While I have know a few escorts who entertained academic careers, it is dangerous to be such a public instructor and/or lecturer at the same time you post public ads for massage and sex work. Will and I visited this topic many times and I had ecouraged him to consider the serious ramifications of what he was doing.
Even while moonlighting as a masseur and sex worker, Will's education and comfort with his public persona allows him to operate at times as a freelance editor and a teacher of ESL with two companies, Partenaire Linguistique des Entreprises
and the Sullivan Language Center.
Both the principles of these companies must clearly know Will's intellectual, performance, and complex interpersonal skills - they are primary sources of referance on his EFA CV with and must know is special skills quite well.
One of my favorite quotes comes from his editing intro blurb on the now defunct "The Ink Quill": "the words we use (or misuse) continue to matter a great deal." You will see that when Will writes, he's always conveying more than one idea.
This all goes so show how much Will was in the public eye along with his skills at performace and presentation, which goes a long way to explain how was I deceived by a man with such a lovely countenance and polite manners.
It's not that massage or sex work is wrong
Let's be very clear here; the fact that such a lovely young man exchanges his sexual intimacy for money is not something I find a problem at all. Clearly, I encourage it.
Many of the men and women Will has as friends may want to 'standup' for him, feeling a sense of pity, empathy, or want to help him out of a tough situation. Some may even secretly desire to enjoy his sexual favors since, as is clear from his profiles, he's a very exprienced, sexually satisfying, and versitile man.
I have always assumed Will would use his charms to describe his situation as necessary, inevitable, or even a last resort for a hard-up young man. Feeling sorry for him is the start towards the deceptive play he wants to perform for you. As you read more, you will see how wrong an interpretation of events this can be.
Actors and performers act and perform.
Self report is not a reliable source of information on the character of a man, one of the most common findings in the field of social psychology, in which I have the best of training. Observed behavior tells so much. These profiles are not fiction.
The Will Fech standard story
His introductory paragraph used on many sites and a fundamental statement imbeded with central themes of personality, especially his 'close readings':
After a Rocky Mountain upbringing in Cody, Wyoming, I received a BA in English and Film Studies from the University of Nebraska-Lincoln (2008), an MA in European Cinema from the University of Glasgow (2011), and an MA in English from Oregon State University (2013). I healthily obsess over global art cinema, exhibition, and pedagogy. I still believe in close readings and thinking through stories, characters, and aesthetics in the classroom. My dissertation focuses on how art house cinemas have changed since the digital transition. Song and dance are my true passions, though, which I cultivate in Montreal’s vibrant theater scene.
This description of his past hints at the family enviroment, which must be troublesome for Will -- the lack of any description of his youth through most of his biographies and writings, and the less than smooth path in the hills (another read of 'rocky'). His family is mostly still in Wyoming with the usual happy Facebook family on Mary Fech's facebook page, showing his dad, James Fech, and Will's siblings.
During our week and a half trip to play snooker halls in Nova Scotia and New Brunsick, Will began to open up to me about his family. He hadn't told his father he has sex with men, though he had told his mother he was bisexual. Will's father had some money he wanted to give him, which may not have happened if Will told his father he was a sex worker and especially enjoyed older men.
During our long talks, Will told me his brother is a convicted pedophile .
When Will and I discussed how this came to be, he said his brother 'was under a lot of stress....' In my most serious and professional voice I had asked Will if he had ever been abused. Will said 'he didn't remember anything happening to him.' I told him how odd a reply this was...most people would say directly 'no, nothing happened'. I assumed the reason Will could never tell his father he enjoyed sex with men (especially old men) or that had to tell his mother he was bisexual (a less than 'gay' designation) stemmed from a family evironment that had engendered a pedophile and an internalized self-abasement for Will.
One of the saddest articles I have read from Will was written during his college years in Nebraska, not so very long ago.
Here you can read the self-denial and problems of sexual identity he clearly faced (and may still), his lack of self-acceptance as a young man. Many men grow up in unhealthy homes or social environments that create this duality of sexual identity, even in this modern digital age with access to positive sex role models.
Will's need to distance himself from 'the Village scene' in all his profiles for meeting gay/bisexual men on Tindr, Scruff, Grindr, or Adam4Adam (and others) probably stems from this inner self-hating conflict. I once told Will I didn't think he was at all homophobic, but clearly self-hating. That may be a new idea to many, but not to psychologists well trained in the development of personality and sexual identity. At least, it's not new to me.
Our first session
Will comes from Cody, Wyoming, which I learned at the end of our first session together, in a small bedroom at the back of the ground floor of the gite I used to frequent in the Gay Village. Will had come into my room, easily dropped his clothes, showing off his fit, trimmed hairy chest and legs, with a full, smooth ass that enjoyed the attention it received from my eyes, and eventually, my mouth. I will never forget how he ambled onto the bed, had me lie face down, and proceeded to rub me with oil, sliding his legs and body against mine, his cock constantly brushing against my arms, my legs, my torso, even my head while he moved around me.
His cock became hard within the first 10 minutes, and I stroked it periodically, though he managed to pull it from my hands each time he moved to another part of my body. The tension of touching, caressing, then pulling away, is a dance we continued for a year and a half.
Will's dark hair and strong, masculine beauty leads any man to distraction -- on our first meeting, since I am a truly social man, I shared my own history. Since I'm from Montana, we discussed the quality of life in small towns and the great happiness of not living in them.
Our conversation moved adroitly to his education, how he was getting a PhD at Concordia in Film Studies, and his past Masters degrees from Oregon, Scotland, and Nebraska. Massage had become a way of earning additional cash when he moved into a private apartment a short time after beginning his graduate program in Montreal.
On our first time together, he also told me he was bisexual, enjoyed intimacy with both men and women, and did massage and escorting with both. I found out some months later he had a website, GentJosh.com that was created to enable him to find women to service, though I think he only met one or two women through it. He could only tell me one specific story of a woman who had engaged him for sex and escorting – she was in town for a conference and found his site somehow, most likely from his listing on LeoList or Craigslist while it was still active. I had met Will on Craigslist, so this private website seemed like an adroit additional use of his ability to have sex with whomever paid him.
From the beginning I had been aware that Will had troubled relationship with telling the full truth, whether it was about his own life or about those with whom he had regular social interactions. Many times his casual conversation let out information which was entirely at odds with statements he made on previous social encounters. And there were many times I was present when he lied in situations that didn't require it.
Once while playing a long set of snooker matches, his girlfriend at the time (he often has one handy) and been texting and then finally called his phone. He hadn't been answering her texts so she called directly. He shot me a strong look that said ‘quiet please’ and chatted with her, telling her that he had been on the phone with his parents and that's why he hadn't replied.
Will many times didn’t tell his ‘best-friend’, Jean, that he was with me, or that we were talking, travelling, or even just spending time together. When he came to Vermont with me one time, he didn't message her and claimed his phone didn't work, though he texted others while visiting the US. This best friend is a woman in New York City with whom he texted constantly, though they have only met in person once, ever. Yes, just once.
A typical Will deceptional scheme involved how he managed his schedule -- he was usually busy, even when he wasn't --unless it made him money. One of the first times Will and I had truly "couple’s quarreling" (we had a tendency to act like an old married couple when in public) was the time he said he couldn't come to an opera with me because he "might have a massage sesssion" scheduled instead, and that he was supposed to see a new friend, Nicholas, too. I had bought the tickets for both of us, with him present while I purchased them, specficially to introduce him to a new art form. Then the day of the opera (I had given him the tickets in digust at his decpetion), he couldn't "find anyone to go with him". The massage session had mysteriously vanished, as had his date with Nicholas (whom he was supposed to fuck -- he had said he might, while I drove him home from his teaching job).
Will often hid his sexual life from me, even though we shared so much sexually and I was clearly a profoundly influential psycho-social support for him. He even hid his online sex from me:
I now know Will liked to show off on live cam and he often did it after coming back from the gym mid-day or in the early afternoon. The are a variety of videos available, both ones he produced, and ones captured by his clients, some of whom I know or referred to him ( I am not a possessive client, and tried to help Will financially with referrals to my friends who I knew enjoyed hiring hustlers).
One time, since I am an older man (see discussion of older men as clients ** link here ***), another residents of his building let me in when I walked up to the door behind him. I took the elevator to the fourth floor without calling Will to tell him I had arrived. We were going to eat then play snooker, a common outing for us. I was about 15 minutes early and when I knocked at his door there was a hurried shuffling and panic inside, with "Hello? who’s there" said nervously from within the little studio. I could hear the quick movements of Will and the rustling/sliding sounds of clothing being pulled on.
"It’s me, I’m early, sorry."
More noises, including drapes being pulled open and then Will, sweating and panting, opens the door.
"Hello." He motions me into the studio. The laptop is open and pointing at the bed.
"I’m sorry if bothered you. Were you naked?"
"Yes!" Will says, "It’s hot out." and he closes the lid to the laptop. "Let me get dressed and we can go."
It was clear to me that he had been jerking off on cam for a man (or two or three or more), his hardon still shown through his hastily pulled on gym shorts and he continued to sweat in his tank top. I was completely turned on by this, of course.
"I’m sorry if I interrupted something...I didn’t know you would be busy."
"I wasn’t." He replied, now angry with me.
I knew not to pursue this, since it was clearly a sexual component of his life he didn’t want me to know about. It wasn’t until after I found the SilverDaddies profile that I realize cam sex shows for older men were a regular part of his sexuality. I don’t think he ever got paid for it, it seems to be what he enjoys a lot, which is not surprising, since his clients are mostly older men ***insert link to client types here *** and his favorite thing is the Lyric Theatre performances whose audience is mostly older men and women; it’s not a young hip crowd that goes to these shows. *** ad links to Lyric and Youtube videos ***
Will told me he would stop all sex work once his teaching started at Concordia - which I knew wasn’t true. (See dates below - add link)
At one point, Will told me he had stopped doing sex work, then in the same conversation told me that one of his regulars and he contacted each other every few weeks to see about scheduling a couple’s session. Will intially told me this man just jerks off while Will fucks the woman, but he also said at another time he and the man had more physical contact than just watching each other -- another level of deception.
Sometimes, the deception involved who and what he did for sex work, like the students Will could call when cash was needed. And there were regular men whom Will had as clients, though he usually told me he didn't have enough time for massage work while teaching and rehersing for a show. He only told me of a few men (an dentist in old Montreal,for example), but I was sure there were more and he was keeping it ‘discreet’ and didn’t like to tell real numbers to a man like me.
Will liked to claim he could only cum once a day, yet I knew of many times he had sex with clients then came and had sex with me before our dinners and/or concerts. Once he came three times in fourteen hours when he stayed overnight with me -- I can be a voracious lover. I knew he would often need to cum with his girlfriend when he stayed at her place (proves the relationship -- like social ‘payment’), then have a dinner/concert session with me, only to cum again while sitting on my face during our usual massage. The rate of sexual interactions including orgasm was a facet of our discussions that always made Will uncomfortable.
***additional discussion on deception in all social interactions ***
I suspect that anyone who asks Will if he's continuing his sex work will get the answer they desire. Will is very good at telling us what we want to hear.
The Silver Daddies/Kinky profile
When I discovered Will's SilverDaddies profile all of our relationship changed. He had been on the site during our trip to visit snooker clubs in Nova Scotia and New Brunswick. I couldn't sleep during the night in Fredericton, and while I browsed sex sites, his profile was listed for me, since he had been on SilverDaddies only a few hours before and was geographically so close...like, he was in the same room with me.
I climbed into his bed and said into his ear, "hey Kinky, I'm going to fuck you!" He protested slightly, "but I haven't cleaned out..." though his cock got very hard and full as I pulled his shorts off, lubing up his hole. I slid inside easily and fucked hard -- he came within three or four minutes, which made me cum, too.
I went back to my own bed and we didn't say another word until the morning. We have never had sex since that night.
Will was not pleased I had stumbled upon his profile and denied hiding it from me. I told him strongly that I was no longer going to pay him money for trips, concerts, massages, plays, dinners, or even snooker memberships -- he had hustled the last money from me.
After we got back to Montreal the next day, Will sent me a letter masterfully written to try to keep my attentions - the full text is in the footnoted picture here. Since I was no longer paying him money for massage, outings, travel, etc., he was withdrawing sex, but he still said he loved me. There is a slight tremble in his writing -- the fear of disclosure must have been overwhelming for him.
OLD MEN: Rent.men, Rentmasseur, SilverDaddies, Chaturbate clients
Not to be too vain, but I wanted to footnote here that I'm an exceptional client for Will - I'm sure none other has been like me before or since. And this is also true for the men I've met through Rent.Men, Rentmasseur, LeoList or any other sites. Since I work and do quite well in the escort field -- you can surmise that I'm an attractive, fit, and desirable mate both in the bedroom and in social settings.
While Will's Lyric chorus or Scruff friends with whom he has/had sex are attractive, many of his clients are less so. His sex work is not like Richard Gere in "American Gigolo" - it's much less glamourous and ends up in places like The Hotel Viger. The rentmen/rentmasseur reviewers and the films he took (or the Chatrubate/SilverDaddies videos he broadcast) were with men like those below ; remember, "sex with old men is my thing."
Will can host his clients in his apartment across from Laurier Metro easily, since the building has many older occupants -- his clients blended into the background of occupants and friends of the elderly. It seemed the perfect hustling apartment since it was very small (see the pics above -- it shows much of the room) and close to public transportation. He never let me fuck him in his apartment - probably because it made me too much a part of his life. I spent a lot of time with him there, but he would not get naked for me at home and would be put off or even angry when I mentioned it.
This is a central idea in Will's way of being in the world -- the secret life that he enjoys and his anger at anyone knowing of it.
*** more here ***
So Many Profiles/Images -
"close readings and thinking through stories, characters, and aesthetics"
Will's sex work profile pictures were alwasy a joking nod to the film-noirs he loves so much. The white boxed face, which like blackout bars never really hides his identity, makes him look different that all the other escorts and hustlers -- which was the intent I'm sure. It certainly caught my attention. I try to remember that the analysis and construction of pictoral images, both in self-reference and others, is part of his doctoral work -- it's clearly part of his deeply imbeded socail skill set. At all times Will is aware of the impression he makes on others -- I once told him how he is 'high self monitoring' -- <insert footnote here with cites>
I once tested the penchant Will had for new online identities and creating personalities or profiles during a game of snooker. A website for fetish men and women JALF had shown up in one of my searches for sex workers, information, and clubs in Montreal. I told Will about it casually during one of our snooker games, how it had lots of bisexual men and various types of kink/fetish users.
After I dropped Will at his Berri apartment, I drove to my Hochelaga apartment and logged onto the site. Will had already created a profile and was searching on Jalf.com for new contacts. This was a mere 20 minutes from when I dropped him off, so he had to have pictures/text and more readily available to upload.
I immediately sent him a message but it was clear he was angry and deleted his profile, though he may have gone back on and created another identity (his usual practice) so he could continue finding contacts.
The more I searched for sites related to hustling and fetish sex (both free and for hustling), the more I found profiles of Will. Since I was looking for places hustlers worked, I found his profiles on:
Friendpro, LeoList.com, Craigslist, Rent.men, Rentmasseur.com, SilverDaddies, Scruff, Grindr, Manhunt, Adam4Adam, Tindr, Jock2Go.com
Snooker became a central part of my time with Will after only a few months of hiring him regularly. He had introduced me to the idea of the game after I became a bi-weekly client, probably during one of the dinners I always took him on either before or after our massage sessions. It became a truly lovely way to enjoy his company and, since I grew up playing pool, expanded my interest and skill at cue sports. I say skill, but I’m not very good at them, though I love to play. My lodge has a pool table which I purchased the first months I opened.
Stories: *** unfinished sections to be completed later ***
Ottawa run-in - with choir he won’t sing with ($150 per diem, sex?)
Intro to ballet, boy, coat check
Opera - no one to go with - fucking Nicolas
meme’s to discuss:
-- constantly txt'ing best friend - Jean - met once, never sees her
-- old men just want to touch a young body
-- Videos of old men fucking him
-- SilverDaddies vs Rent.men sexuality
*** ‘Repeat’ clients he was still seeing
- straight couple - -contact ever two weeks - client jo while Will fucks her
- arab student at McGill
- old dentist in old Montreal (fireworks story)
- old man review
- massage with partner of Dawson college prof
The Trouble with Hairy
Most of Will’s relationships, which are short termed, seemed to end with trouble – his girlfriend he acquired
while I knew him was ‘troubled’. His singular boyfriend in Oregon where he acquired one of his Master Degrees
didn’t end well, though he had told his mother he was bisexual during the relationship. And the only
relationship he described as ‘serious’ for him, a woman doctor who used a strap-on or dildo to fuck him during their sex,
ended with ‘tears’ or so he told me.
She ended it. He felt bad. He cried. That’s all he would tell me. That, and they were together about two or three months. He considered it his longest relationship.
As with many people, I also noticed that most of his dating relationships developed from friends he met socially. He once told me he didn't fuck with friends (we were 'becoming' friends). Yet many of his close friends, and I always suspected possibly some of his professional relationships, were men and women with whom he had sex. Some of his fellow singers and actors were men and women he specifically told me sex stores about.
I assumed he told me these things to produce jealousy in me or when he needed to show me his prowess. (the problem of competition between hustlers is discussed at length in John's story).
Most recently, using a new Scruff Profile Will has again incorporated a new technique for meeting bi-men and possibly clients with the help of a female friend.
Specificaly Will told me of sexual behavior with:
- Ian; "I fucked him good!" - Instagram -- Facebook
- Shannon; "We fucked in my bed after sunning on the roof...."
- Nicolas; "I have a date with him tomorrow night - yes, I may fuck him..."
- Marie Alexiou; "we had sex until 1am so I'm tired right now." (He was dating her -- see section on deception). Facebook
- Tarik/partner dinner; "they got handsy with me..." - Instagram-- Facebook
- Jeff et al (Magog); "he was easy; he hits on everyone..."
This really is a common pattern - sex becomes a cement that binds men and women to Will. He is immensely sexy and attractive and knows the power his good looks have over others. I was bound to him by sex.
One way to understand Will is to recognize his chamelion attributes. He changes to blend with his surroundings; acting straight - blunting his mannerisms, withdrawing his emotional expression with straight men from whom he seeks approval; displaying more fem with his gay friends when he's at dinner in their house or watching RuPaul (which he dislikes); quiet, sensitive with the straight women he wants to use, listening intently to their girlish conversation, which he told me bores him. He said he found most younger women uninteresting, simple, and repetative. He said that was his reason for prefering to find older women for sex partners.
Will rarely described to me aspects of women he desired or enjoyed. He once told me he doesn't like womens' singing voices -- prefering baritone croners to sopronos -- it was as though little about women appealed to Will other than the sex he could get from them. He found a women in a sundress more appealing than the usual sexy revealing clothes womem use to attract men.
All preditors seek to blend in with their environments -- and human sexual preditors are harder to spot because of this great social skill of communicating only a reflection of their social evironment. They may be, like Will, attractive and attentive, and socially engaged, but they are responding, which is profoundingly different from revealing, when they converse. When my doctor friend, Frederic, first met Will (over a few games of snooker) he said "I have never spent three hours with someone and know nothing about him". Doctors, like psychologists, are trained in observation of all the available informaion in social encounters. I've always thought that was why his older woman doctor relationship ended after only two or three months -- she did a clinical assessment at the same time as she fucked him with a stapon.
Sexy Public Displays
We shouldn't forget that chamelions are preditors - and one simple method for detecting a preditor is looking for attributes which don't match his environment. In this case, when Will tried to fit into social domains in which he had little experience, he usually made clothing choices that revealed his underlaying intentions and or motivations.
Our first expensive dinner in the Plateau at Lemeac was on a cold and rainy night; I picked Will up at his apartment lobby, we got a cab, and when we arrived and Will took off his coat (we sat in the window by the door) he had worn only a white t-shirt with tight dark jeans. I asked him if he wanted something to wear since, while it was lovely to look at his nipples erect in the cold, he was clearly cold.
Many other times Will chose sexy clothing at odd times -- like when he gave a pre-film lecture of the film by Kubrick: The Killing at of the Montreal Film (Discussion) Club (CineClub). In the cool Fall weather, he wore a form fitting short-sleve shirt with two buttons open at the top so his chest hair teased the audience, especially when he leaned onto the dias so he could speak into the microphone (which he needn't have done -- they extend -- he knew this). But leaning in a well-fitted, open shirt at a Kubrick film talk (**discuss more parallels with film here) showed off his body and well formed ass, which really was the scene we might have storyboarded.
He did the same at his opening lecture I attending at his explicit invitation (though he feined surprise) at Concordia. Again, he wore a tight shirt with the top two buttons undone and leaned on the dias with his back arched slightly downward -- truly a 'fucking' position. He had even gaily thrown a scarf around his neck before the start of the class to the clapping and laughing of some of the students. Performance in clothing at the start of a class *** more here about sexual showing in lectures***. Will wore this same kind of outfit when he lectured on 'Moonlight' -- I began to see that he often had his clothing in public settings styled to reveal his sexy prowess.
Will showed me his first suit coat, again too small, but body fitting. He loved wearing it on stage. Will loved to show his ass at snooker, laying on the table at least once every 15 minutes during all the games we played. I used to comment on it, but realized if I brought it out more, he might stop doing it -- and I loved seeing his ass and legs on display in public settings (as did he).
Current work for 'Pocket Money' & Immigration
Will continued to hustle and do erotic massage, even after claiming he would stop once his teaching began to pay.
*** insert discussions from car/hustling/character***
He became very angry with me once, as I took him home from a snooker game, when I pointed out that hustling was his primary sexual expression (especially in terms of frequency), and that he truly enjoyed the work at which he is so well suited.
We had discussed many times the problem that sex work had for his application to immigrate to Canada -- a goal he mentions often. I was never sure why he thought he would not be known to the authorities -- it was a strange idea that one could engage in sex work during his graduate studies and then apply to become a citizen.
I had often told him that on-line is the same as 'in public' in most of what we do, yet it seems he continues to work and has been online and working throughout his time in Canada (see below).
His earliest pictures naked were taken just after he arrived in Montreal, so I had always assumed that hustling was one of the attractions for coming to Concordia and living in Quebec. Will had told me early on how he posed naked often in Oregon for artists and so it was an easy extension to add sex work into naked time for pay. I never got a clear understanding how a 'small town boy' was so skilled and proficient at sex work so quickly and I knew Will would never honestly tell me his story, since it caused him so much abivilence and yet was the secret life he so enjoyed.
Which profile is Will Fech?
This is no small question and I will not try to answer it all here.
Will continues to create new identities and personas on-line, as we see he's now using "Out_there" and "Jock_boy" on Rentmasseur. He liked to use 'Kinky' in his titles, and his names often have subtle jokes; he's 'out' but only 'there' -- and he's neither a 'jock' nor a 'boy', but he almost always is wearing one, especially when he meets clients or does cam shows live (more on that later). His handles are advertising and social criticisms all in one.
***insert pics of all profiles***
The only site I ever mentioned to him that he would not list on was Gay411, though it has many, many hustling profiles. I was not sure why he would not list there, though at the time we discussed it, he did not consider himself gay.
Some time later he went to Gay Pride and walked alone through the events and displays, with crowds of men about.
***More on sadness and mistreatment of old gay men*** He did not like it.
Still online in July 2019
It is unclear why his profiles continue to show then dissappear, then new ones are available with new names. (see below for newest on Scruff) He also must be mindful that
*** more on hustling and power relations / damage to clients ***
Afterword - A Useful Woman
I had always suspected that Will would need to find a woman he can use as cover for the work with old men that he enjoys, and to placate his relationships with his family and the various singing/theatrical groups. Being bisexual simply requires sex with a woman and is easily done by those of us who are comfortable with sexual expression.
I expected that he would find one after I told him that, while gay men will tolerate him getting fucked or pegged by old men (or even older women), a woman would not generally be so understanding. I knew this would become a challenge for him, since he had always tried to overcome my impressions of his private life with public portrayals of the opposite.
Wearing a 'beard' for immigration
And the trouble Will might have immigrating to Canada can be handled easily if he marries a woman, since his family would enjoy it and he wouldn't have to 'come out' to them. I told him marrying a man for citizenship was easier to do socially, but his family might not continue to give him money or love. This is a constant dilemma for bisexual men.
Also, with a woman on a gay men sex site like Scruff, he will find many bisexual men who will be willing to pay to play -- and so this is a very easy way to continue his massage business and enjoying his life at the same time.
And note the subtle phrasing, as always, "fantasizes about being with two men" - she needn't even have done it yet.
This is great ad copy from a fine editor...